DizzyIzzy

I will explain that at this moment in time I have consumed some very yummy red wine, taken a recent dose of estrogen, and added a bit of finasteride to the mix and listening to some tunes on itunes (whilst I should be sleeping, and completing coursework for college tomorrow) so if any of this appears garbled my apologies.

As promised a further entry to my blog…

As the title suggests, after a 2 month period of no developement despite taking high levels of hormones (if I move I rattle, honest!) I feel that I have made no progress in terms of transition both physically and emotionally, however in the last 2 weeks I have noticed quite a large amount of development in the boob department.

By development I mean it’s beginning to be difficult to hide A cup breasts, and boy clothes are no longer fitting properly, this is both good and bad, at this stage in transition I am currently out to family and close friends but not out at work or college. When I wear T Shirts I have obvious clevage in the boob department and I swear that I get people staring at me trying to work out the Boy/Girl/Boy situation.

I really enjoy the confusion of people trying to suss me out, for example, when I left a fireworks display recently I was walking backing to my car when a gang of young lads were play acting gay sex, one looked back at me and said oh s**t theres some ma.. woman looking at me, and after leaving college one day walking back up the high street I had a couple of lads look at me and say to each other “is that a boy or girl” nice compliment!.

All this leads to a slight problem, I started self medicating on hormones in April 2007, at this stage I wasn’t planning on starting real life test and start living as a full time girl, however with the problem of hiding boob growth, and the growing confusion with people trying to work out my gender I feel that the only option now is to consider starting real life test at Christmas time.

This means:
1. I have to restart laser hair removal on my face again (Oucccch!!!!!)
2. I have to start planning to inform both college andmy work place
3. Shopping trip, Yaaaaaayyyyyy
4. I need to find a new psych
5. Re-plan my whole transition road map (I planned at being at this stage after 12-18 months of hormones not 7 months yikes)
6. I might make it as a bridesmaid at my mums wedding rather than trying to blend into the background (more about this in a future blog entry)

I have loads more to say but for now I think it is time to draw this entry to a close, I hope to have more to say tomorrow, but I would really, really like any feedback from any visitors on this blog, I have lots of site visitors but little in terms of comments and I really need some encouragement to keep writing and open more sections ie. Hormone sections, remember all feedback is moderated, and no registration is required so feel free to say what you want!

Current mood: Sozzled, Tired, (I am soooo going to have a hangover tomorrow)
Listening to: California  by  Phantom Planet  (Tuuunee or rather Ituneees!)